doot doot doot

well my day was a bit better.
productive one might say. stressful, others might..

i may have had more to say, but i started drinking when i was home from laundry.
so now im a little.. drunk.
gin and juice!

i cant wait for this week to be done.

some inspiring conversations from todays public


~in grocery store~
me: i dont need a bag thanks.
checkout girl: you have your own?

... no im going to carry all this in my hands...
(it was more than an armful)



~in laundromat, taking clothes out of big side loading dryer~
*lights go out*
me:ummm, can you turn the lights back on so i can get my stuff out of the dryer?
laundromat guy: we're closed


... yeah i gathered that... but i want to get my shit....


honestly people!!!

give credit where credit is due

today started out good, but then got bad at the end.

im tired of busting my ass for a company that seems to only be able to give verbal acknowledgement.
dont get me wrong, i do enjoy actually hearing that my work is appreciated, and its nice that some people are willing to vocalize that, but i cant pay off my debt with praises.
ive been at the company for over a year and a half, worked my ass off, and no sign of a raise or extra time off or anything.
i am the one that has to go out and buy all the gifts and rewards for people that work hard, so i see what everyone gets.
and no, im not being jealous or greedy. i dont need to be matched. but i would like is some fairness.
these guys get paid heaps more than i do, and yet, they go for the lunches at nice places on the company card, and take weeks off at a time, and get all these kick backs, and i get paid over time.

oh, they are making it so i never have to work over time anymore, so there goes that perk.

i had someone have a big fit today and try to tell my manager that i dont do my job, because two things fell through the cracks. of the hundreds that i do every week!
its only because this person doesnt work close by me to see what i do, so they only know what they make up in their head i guess.
this person also made a show about a month ago about wanting to get to know me more cause we dont get to work close together.
guess what, this isnt the way to do it.

instead, this has further crushed my spirit.
made me that much more despondent to what is going on at work.

trouble is, am i running away from my problems?
is a fresh start really that, or is it hiding?

i am becoming more and more introspective the further this goes.
and depressed. there is a little of that going on.
maybe more than a little.
but when is the corey time?
i dont even know.

i was at work for 12 hours today, and i bet it doesnt make a lick of difference to this person.

i should add that my manager does know how hard i work and is backing me under this attack and is trying to difuse this person. but that doesnt make it hurt any less.

i dont want to be under-apprecaited anymore.


welcome to my emo blog.

monday-ne

today wasnt a monday-ish as it could have been.
i think work can get better with sarah helping out.
she is so great and im so happy to have her as part of the team.

i still love my job, but my spirit is broken.
maybe that can get better?

good news for the day: i have heat!
glorious glorious heat.
*inside* my apartment no less.

now i just need my arm to stop being all tight and itchy and hurty.
i may have to drug myself to sleep tonight, otherwise ill be up all night when i move my arm.
(did i mention i had a crap sleep last night? well i did)

its after 10 pm
normally id be going to bed now cause i have a circuit training (read:torture) class at 730 in the morning on tues and thurs, but with my arm in healy mode, im skipping it tomorrow.
i should go to bed soon though anyways.
after i dry my hair.

the dishes can wait until tomorrow.

from PAX in seattle a few weeks ago
graham/mario, the amazing wil wheaton and yours truly

yep

its been a month since that last post.
or at least i think it has been.

i cant figure out why the date doesnt show up.
every setting i look at seems to point towards it being there.
suggestions?

work is crazy.
im burnt out.
im not happy.

planning a big trip for feb to miss the olympics here.
how big.. that is the question...

i was almost hit by a lady today who didnt fully stop at a stop sign.
i actually had to jump to my right so she didnt hit me on the left.
the she shook her head at me.
i yelled.
i wish i had yelled more or gotten her to answer more for her neglect of pedestrian safety.

my kitchen faucet drips, and its right behind me.
haaaaaaaaaaaate that sound.
ive asked to have it fixed. lord knows when that will be.
i also got them to turn the heat on in the building today, cause its freakin freezing in here.
i dont know how much good it will do.
this place is fine for now, but not forever. i dont like it *that* much..

my arm is almost done too, so that is at least some good news?
one more sit to finish up my shoulder.

and now, i leave you with me at lost lake in whistler last weekend.

island time

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Seriously

I am on the ferry right now, waiting to depart for nanaimo, where my brother and fam will pick me up and whisk me off to courtenay.

(Disclaimer (for those that pay attenetiony) my blackberry automatically capitalizes at the start of sentences and its a pain to correct every time. So there ya go, otherwise it wouldn't happen. Just trying out this blackberry mobile oposting deal. Might strengthen my drive to get an iphone or blackberry for myself, as this is works. But I digress..)

Its been a long and stressful week at work. They all seem to be that way these days.. Two more weeks in my crap apartment.. Ugh! I need a vacation. So while it will be good to see the fam and fabulously adorable Emmett (ok he gets capitalization cause he is my fav), this will be stressful in its own way. Most times I want to strangle my sister-in-law. We'll see how it goes.

Now that I have survived the full bus ride to the ferry terminal, full of stupid hippies, I am now stowed away in a nice seat away from most people. I love corners. I can sit back and enjoy this ride with my music and cheezies, the official snack of ferry riding. (As per me, as its been that way all my life)

And now, to see if I can add a picture..

next best thing

so, the olympics are coming up.
2010 winter olympics to be exact.

i plan to.. not be here.

i think ill head off to europe.. yeah..
at least i can vacation there, and see what there is to be seen?
or know? for jobs?

i have some friends i need to see (and meet their spawns) in england and switzerland..
some friends i havent seen in over 10 years in holland..

and there are always those danes.
are you danes around in feb-mar of next year??

so

i dont blog anymore

its funny cause it think about it all the time.

i am blaming the fact that i hate where i live so much that it sucks my will to do anything when i get home.
that and work has been insane.

the good news?
im moving in three weeks!

then i will live alone again!
im taking over a friends place, and she is leaving alot of her furniture for me to use til her and her man get a bigger place, so i dont have to aquire new stuffs. this works perfectly for me.

my plan?
to be much happier in my new spot!
maybe start having some energy to do things like talk to friends and blog and exercise.
yes, you read that right, blogging does come before exercise.
maybe ill use it to push myself to exercise more?
who knows...

but til then.. i think of you guys... and try to find time to read blogs..
but i just dont feel like it when i get... here.
come on three weeks! fly by!!!!

keeping being AWESOME

a friend saw this somewhere and took a picture.
i find it far too amusing.. even being an ex-vegan..

i slack i know. i have posts ready but they are on my laptop. and my laptop isnt plugged in.

someday someday someday.

in the meantime, i found one of frankies kin in america.
this one belongs to one of my guildies. (im a nerd. deal with it.)

so really, this post is just for kristin.

...

how come im only attracted to guys who just get out of relationships and arent ready to date?
whats up with that?