sneak peek

the bandages are slowly coming off as i move about. i will take them off and go through the wonderful task of scrubbing it later on this afternoon. im going to go out first, and id rather it stay protected. (hurts less when it gets hit when its wrapped).

but here is a peak at the wing on my shoulder. it sucks to get tattooed on the shoulder, just in passing.


















and yes, this is how fat my arm is. it looks like its all wrap and padding, but its mostly my arm. and it will get bigger when i take that lovely restricing bandage off. woo.

my arm

is hot.

in both the temperature and looks department.

i forgot my camera today, but i will get some shots of it soon. maybe some close ups only while its swollen.

sat 5 hours today. apparently that is his max these days? i could have sat longer..

we figure only one more 3 hours appt is needed, and that is jan 23.

as to the jan 24 appt. i guess he just looked at the book, looked at todays appt mistaking it for jan (???) and so assumed it was taken care of. and then didnt bother to call/email me back to say its sorted. i call bullshit but what can i do? i just have to leave work early on that friday but that is cool.

it will be a work in progress at the convention in austion but whatevs!

i grabbed a pizza on the way home too. someone was talking about pizza dough earlier today... (hope it was good!) and i am not about to cook right now, so this is just as great.

now im going to go 'crumple on the couch' as my friend claire said today. she stopped by to visit. it was nice for conversation, but it also pulled me out of my 'zone' so i felt it more. i was almost asleep for alot of it.

ok bye.

what is normal?

i cant answer that, but what i can tell you is that how i was feeling last night was definately not normal. i would actually describe that feeling as high. stupid cold meds.

i started my day with some cough syrup to stop my dry hack. i then had a hot chocolate. (caffeine!!) oh, and i hadnt eaten anything. so i was super flyin at work and not enjoying the feeling. the rest of the day i stuck to cough drops to stop the coughs..

well when i got home, i decided it was time to hit the syrup one more time cause i was coughing alot. yeah, kept me up til almost 3 am. i was buggin out! it almost made me afraid for how im going to react to and handle the nyquil today. ive had enough of being high on meds.. but at least ill just be laying there today. i hope. maybe sitting up a bit? ack.

oh yeah, and the water from my tap tasted gross last night? i hope its just because of the meds..

i also have to think about food as ill be there for a long time. something more substantial than snacks. i guess i can go across the street for something, but i dont know. i cant remember what ive done for past all day sessions. maybe ill pack a school lunch, with a sandwich, a granola bar and some juice. haha.

i have two hours to figure it out and also eat breakfast, and then i have to start walkin in the rain.

fingers crossed for no weirdness about the jan appointment

misery loves company?

csi was supposed to be on tonight. but because of amurican thanksgiving it was a rerun. i hadnt seen most of it so that was ok, and everyone was sick. just like me! we were all coughing together. like a lovely little family. /sigh

this dry cough may make me cough my lungs right out. its pretty fantastic. ill have to pick up some meds tomorrow.. along with some nyquil for saturday!!!

steve still hasnt gotten back to me though. i dont want to feel weird about it, but i cant help it. and do i say something when i get there? i dont want six hours of awkwardness but... what the hell??? arg.

???

its 830 am. im on my way to work.

i have the spider man theme from the cartoon stuck in my head.
i dont know where it came from.

thought id share.

best mail day ever!!!!

(even trumped the socks!!)

I got this package today at work from Dave!














Full of goodies!!! All the way from Edmonton!














All THESE goodies to be precise! I'm eating sugar three meals a day til its all gone!!!
There is some chocolate chip banana bread and some shortbread cookies!
I dont remember what the square are, but Dave will tell us!
THANK YOU SO MUCH DAVE!!!!!














Also, in the spirit of taking pictures at work, here is my autographed glossy of Wil Wheaton in its over the top gaudy frame. Yes, it hangs at my desk, and yes, its a conversation starter.



















i'm going to go sample now... i'll be back!

bad sock day

dont socks know that they are supposed to stay on your feet? my right sock kept falling down my foot today.. so i could feel it slide over my heel and into my shoe. what the heck sock?! know your role! TO BE ON MY FOOT. not under it. gawd.

tuesday only? already??

i love sneezing. i just had to get that out there. ive been doing alot of it lately too. at least there is something to enjoy about being sick.

i am soooo busy at work still. but, that just means more overtime that i get paid time and a half for, which means more money to save for moving and for my little trips coming up. 4 weeks! well less than that really.. ill be in calgary already in 4 weeks.. cant wait!!!

i just looked at the weather network.. boston and new york are about the same temp as here right now.. florida is about 10+ degrees higher and austin even higher!! yay warm weather! im so glad im ending the trip in the warm instead of the cold..

what else has been going on..

just work. work work work. i went out for noodles with janine and deandra last thursday, and then to the foundation for yummy vegan spicy peanut (the ONLY thing i ever order there. stick with what you know you like) with christine, and then deandra randomly showed up, and claire joined us. it was nice to see friends again! i dont do that anymore. stupid work.

must stay focused on moving. making money and moving. and getting tattooed!

saturday is a 6 hour sit! or a 6 hour appointment anyways. ill be ready to rock, i just hope steve is. he is being wierd and almost flakey lately. he wont email or call me back to confirm an appointment in january that he emailed me about first. we talked about it at my last appointment too, but i didnt know if he wrote it down, so i called on my way home to remind him. no call back. i called and left a message two weeks later, no call back. he emailed me last friday to make sure we were on for this saturday, i replied with yes and btw, did you get my message and can you please let me know about january? (it was worded much nicer and fluffier than that of course) aaaaaand.... no email back! what the heck steve! i dont know if something huge is going on for him right now or what.. but yikes. i need my appointmet. must. finish. arm!

i really want to get on packing up my stuff, but all my bins are full of stuff to sell... hrmmmm. i dont know why i want to pack so bad. i mean, i have six months-ish to go.. but still! maybe it will make me feel more organized? or maybe i will be able to see what else i need to get rid of better. after christmas i will look into starting something. maybe...

ok probably not. but ill talk about it some more!

i was waiting to post pictures of my wrap party that i planned and threw for my team, but the guy with the rest of the (probably) actually good pictures hasnt come around. so here are a couple that i took. i was so busy all night that i didnt even get to take pictures!

smashed cop car that the decorators arranged. super fun for our car game!














im not even sure whats happening here. kristina is drunk and im ... i dont know.
i *think* i wasnt ready for the shot but who knows...














the girl on the far left was someones date to the party, and the one in the middle is a girl from work that i never ever talk to. someone got us to stand together. its kind of a funny awkward picture... oh well.














thats all you get for now. i hope the rest of them come soon and there are better ones..

i think this post ended up being much bigger than i intended. and also a jumble of topics.
im not helping right now either.

congestion

i has it. i woke at 6 am gasping, as the other side of my nose decided to plug up. so i was breathing through my mouth only, and was super dehydrated. also, my nose was running. good morning!

that was all i had to say about that. but! i will leave you with this to ponder.

why, when you are putting on mascara, does one eye turn out perfect, and then the other one screw up horribly. usually chunky and all stuck together. and do i now wash all my make up off and start over, or make some challenging attempt to remove some of the mascara from that eye, usually making it worse.. arg.

oh, its raining too!

the world is an amazing place

i was tlc alot. its a channel here that has lots of reality-ish tv shows, but not hollywood at all. just real reality. home renovations and fashion and medical things. stuff like that. and more.

so tonight, a show came on about britney and abby, conjoined twins that share a body, but have their own heart, lungs and digestive systems (for the most part). they are basically a two headed girl. i found it so hard to comprehend. each girl controls her side of the body, and has no feeling of the other side at all, and yet somehow, they walk and play sports, ride bikes and drive cars. i think i cried through half of it at least. its so amazing and mind boggling.

i just cant even imagine. they were 16 as of the show i watched, but i guess are 18 now.

http://www.fernleynews.com/Video/Conjoined_Twins.html

NKOTB

new kids were my first concert ever. they played last night. i couldnt find anyone to go with me before, but evil facebook lets me know who all went now. i mean, i was sick so i couldnt go anyways, but man, i would have loved too!

stupid new kids...

sick

i was going to update tonight with pictures and all that good stuff, but instead, i am sick. feel sorry for me. i am achey everywhere and i have a headache and im cold and whiny and blah blah blah. my throat hurts and is scratchy, and i can feel my sinuses plugging at the back and sometimes i can feel it in my ear canal. boo.

everyone at work has been sick, and i did such a good job of fighting it off for so long, but i think my body is tired of working so hard and not getting enough rest or relaxation so its taking matters into its own hands..

im going to go grump on my couch with my big fluffy blankts and watch what not to wear til i fall asleep.

hope i feel better tomorrow.

finally

it is all done! all my projects! and now back to stressless life! well.. less stressful at least...

i have more to update on, but ive been so tired... this week i will, with a couple pictures too!

ive been thinking alot about taking nicer pictures... my little canon takes alright ones.. but they dont always have that sharp artsy look that some people can achieve.. i had a better digital one before that my mom still has, so i may reaquire that one.. but only if i can get different lenses for it.. ive been inspired by Allans different camera adventures.. and i want to try it all out. plus, my mom works at a camera store, so maybe i can get some cheap stuff? we'll see...

she did ask me if i was after a macro lense or a zoom lense.. and quite frankly... i dont know...

just cant leave well enough alone

so, when i got my high nostrils done, it was said that they wouldnt work. this is the first time ive tried them. third actually. but this is the first time with neo metal jewelry, and i swore they would work this time. well, one is working beautifully. the other was sinking into my nose, so while nicole was still in seattle, we put in a longer post, and actually stretched it up a very small size, cause that was all they had.

since then, its been getting much better. so, why wait til its all better? hell i dont know. instead, i decide to change it back myself. now, high nostrils are not a very accessible piercing, but i did it just fine. and i wake up this morning to my nose being a bit swollen and, you guessed it, the post sunken into my nose a bit. sigh. ill wait it out for today and see if the swelling will come down. cross your fingers.

if i have to put the longer one back in, i might be out of luck, since it was a bigger size. im such a jackass. oh well, whats done is done right?

nog

i just went to the grocery store for some things, and saw egg nog in the fridge. egg nog! i love it so much. i will only have like, 3 glasses over all of xmas but i love it. is there egg nog in denmark? i am out of touch with the world, i realize this. i hope there is.

i love christmas. i cant wait for it. im going to turn on my christmas lights right now. if the cord is accessible. yes, they stayed up all year.

everything must go!

i need to start selling my stuff off. not cause im pressed for time or anything, but because i just feel like i need to start making a move. start packing the things that i dont really use on a daily basis, like things that are more decorative. so that i can see how much i really have to bring with me, and what maybe i need to get rid of. im so damn sentimental that its going to be really hard. im being tough on myself too, but some things i just wont let go of.

maybe i can wait til january to start getting rid of some furniture. ill do that. but man. so much stuff. i need to get down to that flea market and get rid of some stuff!

i also have a ton of textbooks from my accounting courses. they are 6 or 7 years old now, so i cant sell them back. i guess i can start tearing out the pages and recycling those... arg.

i dont know what the feeling is today, but i just feel like i want to massively minimize everything right. now. so i can see what im up against. and the only way to do that is to get it all out of here!

Boum!

after hearing/seeing the absolut vodka commercial again, which features charles trenet's song, boum, i decided to find more. turned out i already had a bunch on my computer but i did add to the collection. i love old music and this is no exception. of course, i have no idea what he is singing about, as my recognition of the french language is very minimal. it will make for some nice walking music this morning.

its full fall here. getting colder. raining more. i am so looking forward to florida and texas in two months!

doh!

dont you hate it when you wash your sheets and you are so looking forward to crawling into that fresh clean smelling bed, and then you stay up late and are super tired and ready for sleep, and realize that you havent put said sheets back on said bed yet?

*sigh*

im so tired too. =(
oh well, it will be even better when it get it all together.

night!

as the saying goes...

"poor planning on your part, does not constitute an emergency on my part."

unfortunately, it does.

amidst all of my chaos at work yesterday, planning to reorganize and move 200+ people to new spots in the office and making a futile attempt to have them be happy about where they end up, someone had a last minute flight to be booked.

my wonderful manager, knowing what is on my plate right now, told them to send it to me instead of taking it on herself.

so i finish up with a bulk of the move stuff and get back to my desk at 5:20 pm. 5:21 pm i get an email about this flight that needs to be booked. this is the first i have heard about said flight. the guy needs to travel on monday. our travel agent closes at 5 pm. so i try to book using their online tool. it quits halfway through and will not reopen. so i book it through travelocity and am done with it. (after, of course, running around the office to see if the traveller was still there to tell me what time he wanted to fly at, since i have been given minimal information. i even had to google the event myself to find out what airport he should fly into. honestly)

so today, i check my work email, which i never do on weekends, to see about something that has come up regarding the moves. instead, i find an email from the people arranging the event, saying that the flights are wrong, and he should actually be flying out on tuesday. (i would like to add that the travel days were given to me by marketing, who, when called to be asked how long they had known about this trip ((a few days)) said that they were really busy and forgot to tell me. right. like i am just sitting around doing nothing)

i have now been sitting here, on my saturday, listening to the same crappy muzac on hold with travelocity for almost 27 minutes. im sure it will be much longer yet til i get someone on the line.

needless to say, i am not impressed. i have better things to do with my time. and yes, i could leave this til monday but i cant risk flights not being available or the cost going up more. we will already be paying a change fee for this. arg.

TGIF

and man am i happy for it. long week!

i love the direction that my work is headed for me. and i love to hear how much everyone loves me. if only they knew... *sigh* oh well! i can't even bring myself to think about not moving so whatever. i can deal with pushing the move date back a couple months, but not going? oh im going. everytime i see someones pictures of europe or even just travel in general it makes me sad and anxious to get going.

its hard to blog without capitalizing than i thought. im so used to doing it that half the time i dont even think about it, it just happens. half the time. ill keep aiming for consistancy, but it may all go down the tube..

got my hair somewhat done last night. i thought it was going to be cut as well, but we just barely trimmed it. ill go for the new cut/style before my big trip at christmas.

tonight janine is coming over for pizza and maybe we will go out. i dont know where but im sure she has some secret plan that she is going to play off as something spontaneous. she is like that. we shall see.

i was certain that i had something else to write about but its gone now, whatever it was. but i can share with you the fact that somewhere in my nieghborhood, for the past two weeks, someone is doing construction starting at or before 7 am. right now they are cutting steel or concrete. its loud. do you lose your caring for other peoples sleep when you are a construction worker? i know the job needs to get done but come on. jerks.

my arm is itchy.

urg

that is my word for me. right now.

(as an aside, i think ill give up on capitalization in this blog, as i am already infrequent with it. so this way, its all the same. right?)

i had an alright day. but at the end, someone really pissed me off. went over my head when it wasnt necessary, and about things we had already talked about. nothing super major, and my manager gave me some good advice which i will follow. but i am still mad. really mad.

i am also pms-ing, so that is probably why i am as mad as i am. also, why i cant just let it go. i mean, im home now. is there any reason to still be mad about something that happened at work? no, there really isnt. and yet...

on my way home, i was stewing, and probably giving dirty looks to innocent passer-bys (i did try to stop that) and while waiting for the bus i got thinking.

you know when you have a bad day, you have that someone to call and just complain or whine to? or just rant to?

well, because of my job taking up so much of my time, because i dont drink and havent been going out as much (at all), because im a hermit and i play video games instead of doing things, because im lazy, because im saving my money, all this. because of all this, i dont have that person to call here in vancouver anymore. truth be told, i dont know who i would call right now, if i did want to suck it up and pay the long distance. maybe kristin. yeah, id call kristin. but im cheap (did i mention i was saving money?). but still. i have created a wedge between me and my once close friends here. maybe its just a natural growing apart. maybe it was meant to be. maybe we arent the same types of people so it was never meant to last. maybe its so that its easier to leave next year (ok, lets face it, i wouldnt have cared about that anyways).

whatever the reason. i dont have that someone to pour myself out to. yes, i have you, my readers (all two of you), but sometimes you just want a voice on the other end, ya know?

anywho, enough emo drama for now. im going to go eat a ton of cheese just in case that will make me feel better. cheese can do me wrong, can it?

A week in review

This past week at work as been a whirlwind. So much to look after, with only two weeks until the wrap party and the big in studio move. Having Halloween come on Friday sure didnt help anything, and I'm sure I'm behind because of it. I did scare a good number of people at work though, even *after* they figured out it was me...

Also! I got my contract extended until Feb 13! So at least I dont have to worry until that time, and we will see what goes down until then! Still dont know what my thoughts/feelings are about leaving soon after being made full time, which will have to happen when this contract ends, as they have rules about being contract for more than a year, and that will have me two weeks over a year!

Came home friday night after work, and marvelled at how many damn fireworks were set off during the course of the evening. For a while there, it was like an entire crate was lined up down my street cause the noise kept going for 7 min solid. And then just big bursts here and there for the next few hours. Thanks for that Vancouver. Calgary certainly does not do fireworks for Halloween....

If you havent seen the post below already, I had my first sit on the top of my arm yesterday with Steve Moore. I havent had just line work done for years, there has always been colour or shading worked in as well, so this is nice. It will all be healed in a few days! But because of this, we only wrapped it in saranwrap. So! At about 530 am, I woke up and was only aware of the crinkle noise of said saran, and was aware that the vaseline-ish stuff on my arm was now going to get on my sheets, as said saran was moving about. I tried to sleep being still, but at 630 am I gave up and had a shower to wash it all off.

After this, I forgot that it was daylight savings time here, so I thought I slept in past a breakfast date with Shauna and her son. Luckily it all worked out and breakfast was had and enjoyed, despite the hag of a woman who kept trying to signal to Shauna to take Brodie outside because he was shrieking every here and there. Sorry lady, its a family restaurant, so deal with it. You try reasoning with a 16 month old. It's not like we were ignoring him and letting him scream. Some people! She probably needs to get laid more...

This afternoon now, has been spent napping. I think laundry is in order, and maybe some vegging out time on the couch. Yes, that sounds nice.

I leave you with a shot of my costume from yesterday. Its not a full shot, so you are missing the sexier part of it, but you get the idea of why everyone was so scared/disturbed!

go go Steve Moore!

I dont have much else to say. Did the first two hours today. I didnt change anything in the drawing. We talked colours, but I may just let him do what he wants.. Next sit is in 4 weeks for 6 hours!!!