urg

that is my word for me. right now.

(as an aside, i think ill give up on capitalization in this blog, as i am already infrequent with it. so this way, its all the same. right?)

i had an alright day. but at the end, someone really pissed me off. went over my head when it wasnt necessary, and about things we had already talked about. nothing super major, and my manager gave me some good advice which i will follow. but i am still mad. really mad.

i am also pms-ing, so that is probably why i am as mad as i am. also, why i cant just let it go. i mean, im home now. is there any reason to still be mad about something that happened at work? no, there really isnt. and yet...

on my way home, i was stewing, and probably giving dirty looks to innocent passer-bys (i did try to stop that) and while waiting for the bus i got thinking.

you know when you have a bad day, you have that someone to call and just complain or whine to? or just rant to?

well, because of my job taking up so much of my time, because i dont drink and havent been going out as much (at all), because im a hermit and i play video games instead of doing things, because im lazy, because im saving my money, all this. because of all this, i dont have that person to call here in vancouver anymore. truth be told, i dont know who i would call right now, if i did want to suck it up and pay the long distance. maybe kristin. yeah, id call kristin. but im cheap (did i mention i was saving money?). but still. i have created a wedge between me and my once close friends here. maybe its just a natural growing apart. maybe it was meant to be. maybe we arent the same types of people so it was never meant to last. maybe its so that its easier to leave next year (ok, lets face it, i wouldnt have cared about that anyways).

whatever the reason. i dont have that someone to pour myself out to. yes, i have you, my readers (all two of you), but sometimes you just want a voice on the other end, ya know?

anywho, enough emo drama for now. im going to go eat a ton of cheese just in case that will make me feel better. cheese can do me wrong, can it?