jan 20

where does time go? i get a little busy and almost two weeks go by!

lets see.. what went on...
well, i worked alot. and that, in itself, wasnt very exciting at all.

last weekend i went to seattle to watch a warhammer tournament.
yes, the board game.
it was super nerdy and super fun.
but very tiring too, somehow.... standing there watching really takes its toll.
and for some reason i took zero pictures.
i have no good excuse.

this week is more work.
i should be getting excited for my trip, as i leave in 2.5 weeks, but im so busy that i havent gotten there yet.
must work on that.
maybe if i make a list of things i should pack it will spark it off?
hrmmmm..

tonight, i am feeling very emotional.
or maybe sensitive is a better word.

ive been trying to help a friend get an electric piano for his brother, when he comes to visit.
so tonight, i was following up.
he was asking me odd questions, and i couldnt get the number of the girl who was going to lend it to me.
turns out they were all together and taking the piss.
im just really annoyed. should i be?
i dont know if im being irrational here, but my feelings are quite hurt.

the way i see it, im taking time from my personal life, to help out with something that makes zero difference to me if it happens or not.
and they are being dicks.
i am not impressed at all.

maybe im feeling all butthurt that i didnt get invited out?
i dont know.
but boo to this feeling.
its not even pms! arg.


anywho, enough wimpering.
im going to go to bed now.
exciting times i tell ya.
two more days this week. then its only 2 weeks til blast off.

must watch more wire too. ive only gotten 3 episodes down so far.
i have alot of work to do!

2010

lets see how this goes.. with the new year and all...

2009 was a crap year for me. sure good things happened, but some bad shit happened too, and those things seem to crowd my memories, so out with it.

if i want to believe in karma, then maybe i brought it all on myself. what lesson did i need to learn this past year? and did i pay enough attention to learn it? here's hoping.

i lost friends, lost respect for other friends, was used and abused (not physically, thank goodness), lied to and cheated.

i also met new great people, had life turn around a few times, yes for the better, and learned alot. about life and myself and where my place in the world might be. even if it was only a hint.

all in all, however, im excited to see the new year in.

i spent it in a fashion i have never done, which was to go to a party with a few people i work with, whom i never spend any time with, and meet their friends and significant others. new friendships were formed and i couldnt be happier about it. i had thought about relocating later in the night, but when the time came, i was happy where i was, and that was enough for me.

so here's to a year of doing what makes you happy. whatever that may be.
i know im going to do my best this year to figure out what that is.
ive tried before to be more selfish and look out for myself, but i still go back to putting too much dependancy on others.
no one will look out for my best interests more than myself. i know this, now its time to put it into practice.

happy new years everyone. whatever that means to you.
i hope you make it a good one.

really.

So, I had a drink last night. It's been just over two years. I went for pizza at this greek place with Kristin and Corey, and I felt like a strongbow. We went to the ship and I got a tiny half glass of it, to look at and smell. Finally, after some reasonable discussion, I drank that, and ended up having two half pints. So, basically, a pint of strongbow last night.

I had fun. It tasted good. I had a buzz. But I didnt like the way I felt completely. I also didnt like the odd feeling when I got up at 7 to go to the bathroom. Absolutely not hung over, but just.. not right.

I'm not upset or sad that I did it, but I dont think that I will again for a while. It just doesnt seem that great or worth it. Ah well.

Now, to get ready and head to the tattoo convention.