sneak peek

the bandages are slowly coming off as i move about. i will take them off and go through the wonderful task of scrubbing it later on this afternoon. im going to go out first, and id rather it stay protected. (hurts less when it gets hit when its wrapped).

but here is a peak at the wing on my shoulder. it sucks to get tattooed on the shoulder, just in passing.


















and yes, this is how fat my arm is. it looks like its all wrap and padding, but its mostly my arm. and it will get bigger when i take that lovely restricing bandage off. woo.

my arm

is hot.

in both the temperature and looks department.

i forgot my camera today, but i will get some shots of it soon. maybe some close ups only while its swollen.

sat 5 hours today. apparently that is his max these days? i could have sat longer..

we figure only one more 3 hours appt is needed, and that is jan 23.

as to the jan 24 appt. i guess he just looked at the book, looked at todays appt mistaking it for jan (???) and so assumed it was taken care of. and then didnt bother to call/email me back to say its sorted. i call bullshit but what can i do? i just have to leave work early on that friday but that is cool.

it will be a work in progress at the convention in austion but whatevs!

i grabbed a pizza on the way home too. someone was talking about pizza dough earlier today... (hope it was good!) and i am not about to cook right now, so this is just as great.

now im going to go 'crumple on the couch' as my friend claire said today. she stopped by to visit. it was nice for conversation, but it also pulled me out of my 'zone' so i felt it more. i was almost asleep for alot of it.

ok bye.

what is normal?

i cant answer that, but what i can tell you is that how i was feeling last night was definately not normal. i would actually describe that feeling as high. stupid cold meds.

i started my day with some cough syrup to stop my dry hack. i then had a hot chocolate. (caffeine!!) oh, and i hadnt eaten anything. so i was super flyin at work and not enjoying the feeling. the rest of the day i stuck to cough drops to stop the coughs..

well when i got home, i decided it was time to hit the syrup one more time cause i was coughing alot. yeah, kept me up til almost 3 am. i was buggin out! it almost made me afraid for how im going to react to and handle the nyquil today. ive had enough of being high on meds.. but at least ill just be laying there today. i hope. maybe sitting up a bit? ack.

oh yeah, and the water from my tap tasted gross last night? i hope its just because of the meds..

i also have to think about food as ill be there for a long time. something more substantial than snacks. i guess i can go across the street for something, but i dont know. i cant remember what ive done for past all day sessions. maybe ill pack a school lunch, with a sandwich, a granola bar and some juice. haha.

i have two hours to figure it out and also eat breakfast, and then i have to start walkin in the rain.

fingers crossed for no weirdness about the jan appointment

misery loves company?

csi was supposed to be on tonight. but because of amurican thanksgiving it was a rerun. i hadnt seen most of it so that was ok, and everyone was sick. just like me! we were all coughing together. like a lovely little family. /sigh

this dry cough may make me cough my lungs right out. its pretty fantastic. ill have to pick up some meds tomorrow.. along with some nyquil for saturday!!!

steve still hasnt gotten back to me though. i dont want to feel weird about it, but i cant help it. and do i say something when i get there? i dont want six hours of awkwardness but... what the hell??? arg.

???

its 830 am. im on my way to work.

i have the spider man theme from the cartoon stuck in my head.
i dont know where it came from.

thought id share.

best mail day ever!!!!

(even trumped the socks!!)

I got this package today at work from Dave!














Full of goodies!!! All the way from Edmonton!














All THESE goodies to be precise! I'm eating sugar three meals a day til its all gone!!!
There is some chocolate chip banana bread and some shortbread cookies!
I dont remember what the square are, but Dave will tell us!
THANK YOU SO MUCH DAVE!!!!!














Also, in the spirit of taking pictures at work, here is my autographed glossy of Wil Wheaton in its over the top gaudy frame. Yes, it hangs at my desk, and yes, its a conversation starter.



















i'm going to go sample now... i'll be back!

bad sock day

dont socks know that they are supposed to stay on your feet? my right sock kept falling down my foot today.. so i could feel it slide over my heel and into my shoe. what the heck sock?! know your role! TO BE ON MY FOOT. not under it. gawd.

tuesday only? already??

i love sneezing. i just had to get that out there. ive been doing alot of it lately too. at least there is something to enjoy about being sick.

i am soooo busy at work still. but, that just means more overtime that i get paid time and a half for, which means more money to save for moving and for my little trips coming up. 4 weeks! well less than that really.. ill be in calgary already in 4 weeks.. cant wait!!!

i just looked at the weather network.. boston and new york are about the same temp as here right now.. florida is about 10+ degrees higher and austin even higher!! yay warm weather! im so glad im ending the trip in the warm instead of the cold..

what else has been going on..

just work. work work work. i went out for noodles with janine and deandra last thursday, and then to the foundation for yummy vegan spicy peanut (the ONLY thing i ever order there. stick with what you know you like) with christine, and then deandra randomly showed up, and claire joined us. it was nice to see friends again! i dont do that anymore. stupid work.

must stay focused on moving. making money and moving. and getting tattooed!

saturday is a 6 hour sit! or a 6 hour appointment anyways. ill be ready to rock, i just hope steve is. he is being wierd and almost flakey lately. he wont email or call me back to confirm an appointment in january that he emailed me about first. we talked about it at my last appointment too, but i didnt know if he wrote it down, so i called on my way home to remind him. no call back. i called and left a message two weeks later, no call back. he emailed me last friday to make sure we were on for this saturday, i replied with yes and btw, did you get my message and can you please let me know about january? (it was worded much nicer and fluffier than that of course) aaaaaand.... no email back! what the heck steve! i dont know if something huge is going on for him right now or what.. but yikes. i need my appointmet. must. finish. arm!

i really want to get on packing up my stuff, but all my bins are full of stuff to sell... hrmmmm. i dont know why i want to pack so bad. i mean, i have six months-ish to go.. but still! maybe it will make me feel more organized? or maybe i will be able to see what else i need to get rid of better. after christmas i will look into starting something. maybe...

ok probably not. but ill talk about it some more!

i was waiting to post pictures of my wrap party that i planned and threw for my team, but the guy with the rest of the (probably) actually good pictures hasnt come around. so here are a couple that i took. i was so busy all night that i didnt even get to take pictures!

smashed cop car that the decorators arranged. super fun for our car game!














im not even sure whats happening here. kristina is drunk and im ... i dont know.
i *think* i wasnt ready for the shot but who knows...














the girl on the far left was someones date to the party, and the one in the middle is a girl from work that i never ever talk to. someone got us to stand together. its kind of a funny awkward picture... oh well.














thats all you get for now. i hope the rest of them come soon and there are better ones..

i think this post ended up being much bigger than i intended. and also a jumble of topics.
im not helping right now either.

congestion

i has it. i woke at 6 am gasping, as the other side of my nose decided to plug up. so i was breathing through my mouth only, and was super dehydrated. also, my nose was running. good morning!

that was all i had to say about that. but! i will leave you with this to ponder.

why, when you are putting on mascara, does one eye turn out perfect, and then the other one screw up horribly. usually chunky and all stuck together. and do i now wash all my make up off and start over, or make some challenging attempt to remove some of the mascara from that eye, usually making it worse.. arg.

oh, its raining too!

the world is an amazing place

i was tlc alot. its a channel here that has lots of reality-ish tv shows, but not hollywood at all. just real reality. home renovations and fashion and medical things. stuff like that. and more.

so tonight, a show came on about britney and abby, conjoined twins that share a body, but have their own heart, lungs and digestive systems (for the most part). they are basically a two headed girl. i found it so hard to comprehend. each girl controls her side of the body, and has no feeling of the other side at all, and yet somehow, they walk and play sports, ride bikes and drive cars. i think i cried through half of it at least. its so amazing and mind boggling.

i just cant even imagine. they were 16 as of the show i watched, but i guess are 18 now.

http://www.fernleynews.com/Video/Conjoined_Twins.html