blarg

i hate... well, alot right now.
but im being dramatic.

there is alot of stress at work right now, due to one 'coworker' thinking they are way better than the rest of us, and actually going behind our backs to sabatoge us.
its documented.
and their manager is out of office til friday. has been for two weeks.
amazing.

so, hopefully when i am back from my week away, they will be gone.
that would be super.

so, as per my earlier post, harper-lee is in town.
we went out tonight.
i dont know if it was a combo of my stress, and lack of money, and ...a full moon?
i just dont know, but i wasnt into it.
i am in a hermit mood, and i had to be out.
i dont like to be forced to do stuff, but sometimes... *sometimes* i am too nice to say it.
i did say it later in the eve, but i was already out so what did that do?

basically, i was out when i didnt want to be in public, and spending some few dollars that i dont have to spend on being out when i dont need to be.
and they were getting other rounds, so then i feel obliged to pay as well.
and i dont have it.
so that not only makes me feel cheap, but it just makes me feel bad too.
like, i cant keep up. not like i need to, but its this weird thing i have.
so i didnt have a good night.
i just want to go home and be alone.
i dont want to be here and feel like i have to go out.
but i will. whatever.
ill just eat dollar slice pizza. i dont know.
arg.

two more days.
AND THEN.

i fly to albuqueque, NM for a day of hang outs with my friend jamie!
and then we road trip it through arizona to las vegas!!!
then its five days in vegas with my besties.
i am so excited for that!!

i am also extra excited cause this year i decided to afford a room alone.
(hence my stress about spending money where i dont need to here)
my own sanctuary. ill need it.

man, these next two days cant go by fast enough!
so much to do at work. boo.
and my camera battery died so you get nothing else.

until later!