whats new?

well, i sold my bike. right away too, so that was awesome.

trying to sell the couches now. might take less than im asking on them to get them out.

i am thinking now that i might not take a trip at all and just move to a better apartment.
i was going to tough it out here til january, then give it up and put my stuff in storage and go away for 2 months. i could couch surf when i got back and find a new place then.
one that i would spend more money on but feel a bit more settled in.
right now i feel like this is not somewhere that i can 'be'. i feel very.. immature in here, if that makes sense. its not very grown up.

almost makes me wish i hadnt left my last place, but i needed the change. i did.
its just frustrating.

went on a date last night with a boy that i have a crush on.
im not sure if he was totally aware that it was a date though, or if he just thought we were hanging out as friends. dinner and a movie. come on.
but i am going to go with my friend holly's advice, and hang out with him a few more times, just us. she says that after about 4 hang outs, if there isnt anything sparking, then its just friends.
he is very friendly and fun, but i suspect he may not know how to deal with dates and such so much, so maybe thats it. or maybe, just maybe, i have another friend.
time will tell.

still feeling in my funk but at least being active about it.
hung pictures up last week, so that it feels a bit better and lived in in here.
got my magnets up on the fridge too.
today i need to clean stuff and go through my boxes again and try to condense some more.
and laundry. damn that laundry...

i would also love to go shopping for a new pair of jeans, but maybe i can do that on the weekend... hmmmmm.......

Dressew!

Kate and I are headed downtown today to check out Dressew for some Halloween bits and maybe just general craftiness. I love Dressew. I'll take some pictures. It's an amazing place.

After that, I may just come home and be crafty. Maybe hit the shop on my street that is only open when I am at work during the week. Jerks.

Tonight, a friend from work is having a party and I am attending. Turns out, through the small world that is, that the guy that rents his basement suite, is the guy that tattooed my stomach and pelvis ages ago. Haven't seen Trevor in like, at least 3 years. Should be interesting. I wonder if I shouldn't make that area.. presentable. haha!

Last night I was supposed to hang out with my friend Cam from work, and check out a new game, Dead Space. His girlfriend was going to join us for pizza. Well, the game itself is super creepy. I couldnt watch long, cause third person and first person shooter games make me car sick. But his girlfriend came over, and his roommate came home, and a buddy came over. And then suddenly Cam and the gf went to his room. Then she comes back out and announces that she has to have a serious talk with Cam and are we staying or leaving. It was very odd. I didnt see Cam again last night. Good thing I am friends with Steve, his roommate, as well. Could have been even more awkward. I hope its all good.

I also hope its not cause she was hanging out with me. I know Crystal as well, and have hung out with them both a few times, and her and I talk. But Ive found in the past that girls get jealous or threatened when I am around. And I am not after anyone's man. I can't think of a worse trait in a guy, than leaving their current girl for me. Who's to say they wouldn't do that to me down the road? For that simple fact alone, I do not EVER try to steal boyfriends/husbands. EVER. What sort of monster am I? I just get along with guys better, and Im usually friends with alot of guys. But nothing is going to happen. Ever.

It's how I got nicknamed Homewrecker back in Calgary. Three long term relationships dissolved around me, while I was just there. Guilt by association. I had nothing active to do with any of it. Maybe I just turned up for them when things werent good. If there isnt trust there to begin with, maybe thats what happens? I dont know. But it sucks. And Ive just realized that Ive gone on this big rant about something I have speculated. So, I'll just stop now and see what Cam has to say about it all.

Now, Im going to get ready to catch the bus for some crafty shopping!!!