feb 1

ok i really dont like these date headings... boo.

i think that my dark mood from yesterday has lifted.
actually, i know it has.
it was still with me this morning, but instead of dwelling in it, i started to think about where it ws coming from and what i was really upset about and why i was letting it get to me like that.
i think its just another sign that i need some time away from home and my usual life here.

some time to reflect, to do whatever i want (nothing) for a while, to just think it all over.
and to experience some new stuff!

four more days of work. im doing my best to get through.
ive all but completely checked out, and im trying to care. for the team.
i just cant wait for it to all be done with.
120 hours til my flight leaves. is that bad that ive started counting hours already?
if it is, i dont care, im doing it anyways.

i should be packing right now. yes, still. no, i havent started.
/sigh
but i have the suitcase! at least there is that.
i may try to make a pile of clothes today that i can pack, ones that i wont wear for the rest of the week? kinda hard really... i mean, im going for a month! i can wear alot in a month...

how cold is cold? i can see on the weather network that its around -5C. not too bad.. could be better, but hey, im from alberta. it can sure be a hell of a lot worse..
i guess ill see what all i can fit in this big ol suitcase i was lent, and then see how much it all weighs.

and shoes! how many shoes does a girl bring for four weeks away from home?
i cant wear snow boots all the damn time. am i going to go somewhere where i can wear fun shoes? amalie seems to get to... hmmmmmmmm
maybe i really should have started this a while ago..