last night i was ready to go out and party, but my partiers (danielle and fry) were not into it.
we drank a bit in their room and then i came back to mine at midnight.
i tossed and turned for hours.
trolled the net.
ate some peanut butter and bread.
nothing.
around seven i slept a bit, but even then fitfully and interrupted.
got up around one, accomplished nothing much, and even tried to nap again.
fruitless.
i dont know how im feeling right now.
or rather, i cant figure it all out.
i love hawaii, but im tired of not having my actual space and my stuff.
im actually missing having a real life, and im anxious to get home and set my new place up.
i dont know what is going to happen for me right now.
i def need to save more in order to move, but i also need the world to right itself before i do so.
i hope that work wont try to force me to sign some 9 month contract, and can keep it short so i dont commit to too much.
i should be relaxed after all this vacation, but instead im stressed and wondering and unsure.
and unhappy.
i want a do over for 2009 thus far.
im not into it.
i just dont know.
and to top it all off, my bottom teeth are bugging me.
that sort of growing achey feeling they can get.
but they shouldnt be doing that.
my wisdom teeth are out an everything.
but ache they do.
harrumph.
2 comments:
Oh, i don't like that you're unhappy.
Boo to that.
Hope things will start to make more sense when you get back home.
I also don't like this unhappiness Corey.
When you're back in Vancouver, send me your new address and I'll send you a treat in the mail. It will hopefully make you happier.
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